Last night, while cat sitting in the Oakland Hills, I had a good view to catch the NYE fireworks that were happening in San Francisco. For the first time, in a long time, I could see the fireworks clearly because the wind had blown the fog away. It’s rare that this happens in the Bay Area and I couldn’t help but think that God was trying to tell me something about how even though I don’t like wind (it’s messy, annoying, uncomfortable, unpredictable) it’s sometimes necessary because it blows away what is blurring my vision, so I can see more clearly what’s really going on. God is in the wind.
I’m not one for making New Years Resolutions, and I know I say that every year. But I always feel like I need to write something down so I can look back at it a year from now and see how far I have come.
2018 was a busy year for me- performance wise. I know that’s a good thing, but I also noticed how tired I was for much of the time. I wish I had an endless supply of energy. I wish performing only gave me more energy- but I’m an introvert, so being on stage doing solo performance actually wipes me out.
Then why do it? I wish I knew. I think Steve Martin recently said something to the effect of “doing a show with Marty” (Martin Short) made him realize it was the first time he wanted to perform, verses having to perform.
I am assuming he felt like he could maybe relax more on stage and enjoy the ride because not everything was riding on his shoulders because he was no longer the only one on the stage. If that’s the case, then I totally get it. For the most part, I usually perform because I feel like I have to- like it’s this itch I must scratch, but I don’t necessarily want to. And yes, being on stage with other people definitely takes the pressure off. I get it. This is the part where I say something cheesy like “but how do I share the stage with God so I don’t feel like all the pressure is on me?” I don’t know.
Then there are other solo performers who do not want to share the stage because they do not want to share the attention. I don’t mind sharing.
2018 brought comedian Hannah Gadsby to the forefront with her solo show “Nanette” on Netflix. It was part stand up, but then it really veered into more of a one woman show with powerful vulnerability and honesty that I found inspiring. Then she would bring the humor back. Amazing skills. Not easy to do.
Then this morning I woke up and watched a video of comedian Tiffany Haddish “bomb” (by stand- up standards) at her New Years Eve show last night. But watching her weed through the rubble of her fresh material, (I think she was working out some personal issues out that weren’t ready for the stage yet), I enjoyed watching her creative process-turning pain into jokes. Not that the pain isn’t to be taken seriously- humor is just another way to communicate the pain. Again, it was inspiring.
I don’t have a point to this post. I am just hoping I “catch wind” (wah wah) of what God is doing for 2019 in my life.
Happy New Year!
This how crazy the wind was last night in San Francisco. The one newscast on Channel 4 that showed our fireworks!
NYE Cat Sitter Selfie