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A Republican in Berkeley

My one-woman-show “Born Again in Berkeley” was not my idea. I was in the middle of writing another solo show “Confessions of a White Mexican“, when my solo performance teacher started asking me questions about my Christian faith. It was 2018, the midterm elections were coming up, and Donald Trump had been president for almost two years. (As I type this, I can’t believe it is happening AGAIN). Anyway….

My teacher was putting together a festival called “Times Unseen” and wanted to know if I would write a piece about how my Christian faith ties into my politics.

Times Unseen chronicles the effect of political change. Because we are in new political territory and because politics, for better or worse, are about promises of a changed future. Times are as yet unseen.

So, I put a pin in “Confessions of a White Mexican” and with fear and in trepidation, agreed to write about what it was like to be a born-again Christian in Berkeley, if and only if my teacher would keep the audience members from throwing tomatoes at me.

Being a born-again Christian in the San Francisco Bay Area is not popular. It’s not mainstream, it’s not cultural, and it’s painted with the most negative of brushes. People hear “born-again” and assume the worst stereotype. Unrelatable, unintellectual, religious extremist, judgmental, close-minded and worst of all……..Republican.

Yes, that’s right. It’s practically against the law to be a Republican in the San Francisco/Berkeley/Oakland area. I call this area the Bay Area trifecta- they are sister cities with the most liberal of politics. But as you travel to the outskirts and into suburbia, (Marin, the Peninsula, Contra Costa County, etc.,) the politics become more conservative. Although not too much more, you will still be in the minority, but you won’t be arrested. Although you may be pulled over, questioned, then let off with a warning. They may just write you a ticket and tell you to keep your conservative views to yourself. In the name of tolerance and all.

But I get it. Especially in the rise of Trump, how extreme and polarized politics have gotten. When I was a teenager, I remember that “being a Republican” simply meant you wanted smaller government and lower taxes. I don’t recall much talk about what side of the abortion issue you were on. In fact, one Baby Boomer told me that back in her youth, being an evangelical Christian didn’t mean you were by default, a Republican. The merging of faith and conservatism rose up with Ronald Regan and up to that point, Jimmy Carter, a Democrat, was the one known Christian in politics. But everything changed in the 1980s, and in the white conservative American Christian church’s quest for power through dominionism, true and authentic evangelism has been bypassed. Why love your neighbor when you can pursue a seat of power instead? Some will say they are showing love for their neighbor by running for office, but I would argue it’s easier for some to pursue political gain than it is to actually feed the poor.

Hey, I am no saint. Yes, I may contribute financially once a month to certain charities, but am I doing the groundwork? I mean that’s just so uncomfortable, isn’t it? Can’t I just write a check? (Although, does anyone write checks anymore?) We are so distracted with capitalism in this country.

So why on earth would I agree to write a solo show that makes people in the SF Bay Area uncomfortable? This goes against my phlegmatic nature. I want everyone to get along and controversy does not energize me. All I can say is I prayed about it and as long as I sensed God’s favor was in it, I would do it. But it hasn’t been easy. I spent a lot of time doing research on some old political campaigns of my past. I used to attend a church that was involved in city politics; it got pretty ugly, and I had tucked those memories away. But then, all of a sudden, there I was, at the GLBT Historical Society Archives Building in San Francisco, in pursuit of historical accuracy, digging through boxes trying to recall what exactly my old church had gotten mixed up in. It was so many years ago and I needed to jog my memory. I put together a 45-minute script for the 2018 Times Unseen Festival at the Marsh Theatre in San Francisco, and the show went alright. But I could tell after the initial performance, the story wasn’t done. So, I continued to work on the script and came up with a 60-minute version which I performed at a few SF Bay Area suburban churches followed by the Rogue Fringe Festival in Fresno in 2022. I got one decent review at the festival, but still, it felt like it wasn’t done. I applied for the San Francisco Fringe Festival five years in a row, but never got in. So, I kept tweaking the script and then made my official Berkeley debut last year. Performance wise, I think it went well, but what I was not banking on were all the feedback emails I received afterwards. Now mind you, I did not ask for feedback from the Berkeley crowd, but I took it as a good sign.

“I will be thinking about your show for days.”

“That kind of discussion is precious, and I feel the need for it in my life, so I imagine others might too.”

“I was very touched by the underlying message in your show that Christianity is about love and that is what you are striving for.

And yet, I have not performed the entire show since November 2023.

As scary as writing and performing the show has been, the hardest part has been getting people to come out and see the show in the first place. It used to be that whatever theatre you performed at; the venues were the ones who were in charge of getting an audience and had a loyal following of subscribers. There wasn’t so much pressure on the actors to do promotional work, but with social media- the expectations have shifted. I am not famous, or an influencer. I have never gone viral and only have a modest following. I still work a full-time job so my energy level in regard to promotion is limited. I send out emails and tell my friends and post on all the socials, but I can’t force people to care. So, now, on November 23rd & 24th I will be performing “Born Again in Berkeley” one last time (actually twice, one evening show and one matinee), before putting it away for a while. Solo Performance is a lonely business and unless you have a draw, it’s just not worth the work if no one will see what you have done. Don’t worry, I will continue to perform solo pieces in 2025, but on less controversial and more lighthearted topics. That is unless someone sees one of my upcoming final shows and invites me to perform it again at a venue that will help me promote. Then I will resurrect the show! Pun intended.

But for now, please join me one last time for the 2024 grand finale of “Born Again in Berkeley” on November 23rd & 24th in San Leandro. Come out and see the show that one reviewer in Fresno called “an intimate look at one woman’s journey of widening one’s mindset and acceptance as walls of intolerance and ignorance are torn down.

Shows will be held at the San Leandro Main Library, 300 Estudillo Ave., San Leandro.
Shows are Saturdays at 7 PM and Sundays at 2 PM. Schedule is subject to change.
Seating is General Admission.
Questions? Contact info@bestofsfsolo.com

Tickets: $40 at the door only. (let me know if this causes a financial hardship for you- we can work something out).

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Taxicab Confessions

Facebook post of the day:

So, there it is. They should have polled the cab drivers. They get the real story. Lockeroom talk.

I am glad that Kamala ran though. We need to normalize women running for president. And maybe someday, they will actually win.

And then Bernie wrote:

Ya see that. “Show me the money“.

Except for black women. They SHOWED UP.

Look at those Hispanic/Latino men. I forgot how machismo the culture is. Hey, I’m half Mexican, I can say that.

Then John Dickerson did an interview with Stephen Colbert. The phrase that jumped out to me was “non-college white voters.” Non-college? Is that what I am because I don’t have a degree? Why not just say “blue collar” or “working class”?

It’s those little things that cause the “non-college white voters” to feel overlooked. Shoot, JD Vance wrote a book about it. They must have felt seen by him.

But with all those missteps that the Democratic party has taken, Donald Trump is never the answer. My two cents, my blog. I’m not looking for a debate. This is my safe space.

Thursday, November 7, 2024

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The Day After

This is what the day after the 2024 Presidential Election looks like. I wanted to keep a record of it, so I don’t forget. FYI – I did not vote for Donald Trump, but I think it’s important to remember history- the good and the ugly.

From one Trump voter:

I think that comment on social media sums it up. At the end of the day, after all of the issues, the American people still vote with their pocketbook (outdated terms, but you get it). Women’s rights, the war in Gaza- those are “fringe issues” at best, to a lot of voters. And even with Trump’s lack of a moral compass – voters can’t think past the money part. It doesn’t matter if the economy was worse during Trump’s first term- in their minds, whoever is in office now, – that’s who you vote out.

I think in 2028, if inflation is even worse, whoever runs against Trump will win. Money talks. If memory serves, that’s what happened to Jimmy Carter. I was just a kid, but all I heard was the word “inflation” – then Reagan got elected. It didn’t matter that Jimmy Carter was a good Christian human being.

I did notice that the price of toilet paper went up at the grocery store this past year, so I’ve had to stick with the Walgreen brand (very affordable). But what if people don’t live near a Walgreen’s?

Also, milk products at Trader Joe’s are very reasonable, but what if you don’t live near a Trader Joe’s? People start to feel helpless.

BTW- I don’t own a home. I live in a rent-controlled studio apartment. Sure, I would like to have more room someday, but not at the expense of a Donald Trump presidency- and I don’t think he can help me anyway. All of my needs are met. God provides for me. I don’t consider myself poor, but also- the American dream has never been my dream, and I don’t equate owning a home with security or stability. Even before I became a Christian – I knew my calling in life would not be a conventional one.

I am also not a fan of pushing conservative Christian values through politics. Been there, done that. One of the churches I used to attend, had gotten a taste of what political power was like and power is intoxicating. But it was also short-sighted, and God gave us a warning – Zechariah 4:6. “Not by might, nor by power, but by my Spirit says the Lord Almighty.” – It was as if God was saying to us: “No more political power grabs in the name of Christ.” I will never forget that election night back in 1993.

But that was years ago, and with each new church movement, there are always people in the church who want to sit at the head of the table and wear the finest of robes. Now I’m not saying that God can’t anoint certain people to leadership positions- I believe He does. But I suspect that there are way more people who pursue power, than there are those who are actually anointed and called to that position. Again, power is intoxicating.

I am thinking I am going to start blogging every night again, like I used to during the height of Covid. I think I need to remember these times. The good and the bad.

Wednesday, November 6, 2024

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Day 239/240 -The Weekend

I totally forgot to blog last night.

I guess I was so busy having a good day it completely slipped my mind. But also, Saturday Night Live got delayed and it completely threw me off my schedule!

Yesterday I woke up at 8:27am to news radio and the announcer said: “Just a few minutes ago both CNN and CBS projected Joe Biden as the winner of the election.”

Shortly after that I begin to hear celebratory howling in my neighborhood. As I walked down to my local Starbucks to get my morning coffee, I saw a young woman ringing a cowbell and heard a car blasting loud music “F*** Trump!” It wasn’t even 9am. Aw man, Oakland is gonna be lit today!

But I had much to do yesterday and couldn’t make it down to Lake Merritt until after 4pm where folks were having an impromptu parade with people in cars honking their horns and others cheering with signs:

Someone on Twitter posted video footage of a person dressed up as a USPS mailbox dancing in the streets. I haven’t seen Oakland this happy since the last Warriors parade.

But even with all this celebration, half the nation still doesn’t get why so many African Americans do not like Donald Trump. They cling to the exceptions to the rule – “Diamond and Silk“, “Candace Owens” and “Insert random rapper here“. As if those people are the chosen enlightened few and everyone else just doesn’t get it. That’s like saying the majority of African Americans don’t know what racism is. That is so unbelievably arrogant. Some people will choose “policy” and “the economy” over loving other people. They will choose the “law of the land” and “the love of money” rather than deal with other peoples’ oppression. They love laws more than they love people.

But enough of my soapbox. Saturday was a good day. I wrote a good amount for my solo performance class that I had today on Zoom. I’m gonna write for two more weeks before memorizing the script. I am not used to cutting it this close before a performance, but I trust the process.

Sunday, November 8, 2020:

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Day 238 -It’s the Most Wonderful Time of the Year…

It’s the most wonderful time of the year….

Today was the first day that I was able to keep my windows closed all day long and not get too warm. Finally I feel cozy. It’s beanie weather!

Seriously I wish it was like this all year round, but then I probably wouldn’t appreciate it so what are you gonna do?

Still in a holding pattern as far as the election goes, but it’s looking good for Biden. He gave a speech tonight and I can tell he was nervous. He has a stutter (that some are quick to call “dementia”). I, for one, am grateful for someone who speaks like a calm collected person. I don’t need any more drama coming from a president. Trump was exhausting.

I feel at peace. I had more energy than yesterday so I was even able to catch the sunset this evening.

It was a good day.

Friday, November 6, 2020:

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Day 236 – Holding Pattern

As I type this:

I gotta be honest, I didn’t think Biden would have this kind of lead at this point. I thought Trump would pull ahead and win. I guess he still could, but it doesn’t look good.

Now some Trump supporters are claiming “fraud”, but remember, that is a seed that Trump planted in people’s heads along time ago. Narcissists are really good at playing the victim and they always plan at least three steps ahead of others. They constantly strategize how to cover their asses and look for vulnerable people who will support them. He is a master at manipulating people.

And so it goes. I really did think Trump was going to win, and I was going to be disappointed, but not surprised. And then I would write my one woman show around the results of Trump winning a second term, but if Biden holds the lead and wins, well, this changes everything.

To be continued.

Wednesday, November 4, 2020:

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Day 235 – Election Day 2020

I woke up this morning, marched down the hill, got my Starbucks iced coffee and began my daily walk.

First, I stopped by my old polling location.

It’s no longer a polling place since most of us mailed in our ballots this year. I was a little sad because I wanted to find a polling location to take pictures. I was then told that Piedmont had a polling station, and off I went, on foot of course.

Ahhhh, I feel better now.

As I type this, Biden has a slight lead over Trump, but that doesn’t mean anything. It’s just too close to call. I know some are surprised, but I am not at all. After being surprised in 2016, I was determined to pay more attention to others who shared a more conservative view point. I followed Trump on Twitter and saw all the “likes” and followers he has. I wanted to have my eyes OPEN during this election. And it’s turning out just as I thought. I am done being naive. The truth hurts, but I want to live in reality and not a fantasy, and the truth is… a lot of people still like Trump. We have to deal with it.

Not a very cheery blog I know. I wish I could go back to the beach. I did get a few sunset pics today though. Enjoy.

Tuesday, November 3, 2020:

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Day 234 – Twas the Night

Twas the night before voting-
And all through The Town -
They were boarding up windows-
In case it went down-

Political lawn signs-
Were mounted with care-
In hopes that the turnout-
Would surely be there-

Voters were hopeful-
All snuggled in bed-
While visions of Biden-
Danced in their heads-

The TV was saying-
"Ahead in the polls"
But knowing from last time-
Means nothing at all-

And this time tomorrow-
Will I hear a clatter-
Of protesters marching-
Cause Black Lives Don't Matter?

Or will I be elated-
And sighing relief-
That the nightmare is over-
And start healing from grief-

Whatever the outcome-
It will all come to light-
Happy voting to all-
And to all a good night.

Monday, November 2, 2020:

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Day 227 – Voted!

I dropped my ballot off today at an official Alameda County ballot box in Piedmont. I like Piedmont. It’s less crowded and I can park my car.

The first time I remember anything about politics was when I was in the fourth grade and Jimmy Carter was up for re-election. Our teacher had us each stand up and tell the class who are parents were voting for. Can you believe that? Something so personal and private, and yet, there I was, standing up and announcing proudly, “CARTER!”

He didn’t win. And then the next political memory I have is being in the 5th grade and Reagan getting shot.

I would like to say I was more aware of politics during the Cold War, but I was knee deep into hairspray, blue eyeliner and Guess jeans and didn’t pay much attention.

Then in the Fall of 1988, I stepped foot onto my first college campus and Dukakis was there speaking to a ton of students, many holding up BUSH signs. In Contra Costa County- it’s a fair fight. You hear from both sides. I just remember some of the BUSH supporters saying, “I’m rich and I’m gonna stay rich!

Election Day that year was November 8th, and 11 days shy of my 18th birthday. I couldn’t vote. But I remember thinking, if I was eligible, I would have voted Democrat.

After becoming a Christian in 1989, most people I knew in the church were Republicans, so I registered as a Republican. I voted this way for years until my conscience couldn’t take it anymore and I defected.

This year was the first year I voted by mail. I didn’t mind it, but I do kinda miss going to the polls. I know voting by mail isn’t mandatory in California for this election, but I just wanted to make sure my vote got counted sooner than later.

VOTE!!

Monday, October 26, 2020:

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